To be audacious is...

It's 2012...
Our christian camp is around the corner and i want it to be special, not fun special but God special, i don't want to just do the t-shirt thingy (i could be wearing any of the fascinating t-shirts around, its not a big deal), i don't want to do the campaign thingy (i can safely make the campaign team of a dynamic president, an excellent nigerian one or anywhere in the world for that matter), i don't want to do the holiday thingy, i'm done with playing church, doing politics and responding to anyone's less than christian behaviour, they are not the most important thing. God is!

Behind of all the games we play, there is a God and that is who i'm gonna be going to camp to meet, i trusted Him with my life, i still trust Him today so i choose to prepare for that TIME.

I tried to do it the short way, i was sadly lacking and ignorant so i want to find out what audacious means so i can do the word and maybe change the world along the way, MAYBE! I'll be using several dictionaries.

Here goes:
au·da·cious
[aw-dey-shuhs]
adjective

extremely bold or daring; recklessly brave; fearless: anaudacious explorer.
extremely original; without restriction to prior ideas; highly inventive: an audacious vision of the city's bright future.
recklessly bold in defiance of convention, propriety, law, orthe like; insolent; brazen.
lively; unrestrained; uninhibited: an audacious interpretationof her role.



So i've been thinking, does the above describe me? I could do the churchy thing and say yes. But i'll say no, it doesn't describe me yet. I intend to get there. I used to be uninhibited, i need to get back there; i'm unpredictable even though i don't look it. I'm original, even though i seemed to be losing my touch or rather His touch. I can get back there. I can break protocol when its least expected, i'm not afraid of anyone or anything.

Here's another:
intrepidly daring : adventurous <an audacious mountain climber>b : recklessly bold : rash <an audacious maneuver
: contemptuous of law, religion, or decorum : insolent
: marked by originality and verve audacious experiments



Let me just say that i noticed that they all indicated that audacious is an adjective so it has got to be an action word and not just speaking words, i intend to throw away religion, it will not be the death of me.
Am i daring? I don't know, have i got verve? Yes. Am i contemptuous of religion? I had better be if i intend to fulfill all that God has called me to do. I am done with people-pleasing. Audacious experiments: Lord, you know, i leave that with you and pray for courage to obey when i need to.

And another:

1. Fearlessly, often recklessly daring; bold. See Synonyms at adventurous, brave.
2. Unrestrained by convention or propriety; insolent
3. Spirited and original: an audacious interpretation of two Jacobean dramas.



Fearless, i conquered fear years ago, yet it is an enemy i still need to conquer from time to time, what is my choice of weapon, it hasn't changed 2 Tim 1:7, He has not given me a spirit of fear, i should never find myself playing with fear because it is not a gift from God, God's gifts to me are the spirit of love, power and a sound mind, this should be my focus every time it seems like i am afraid.

The final definition that i have:
audacious (comparative more audacious, superlative most audacious)
Showing willingness to take bold risks; recklessly daring.
Impudent.
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Synonyms
(willing to take bold risks): bold, daring, temeritous, temerarious
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Antonyms
(willing to take bold risks): shy, cautious, prudent



So that is it...
I got more analysis
Am i willing to take bold risks? No. I usually shy away from risks but the only reason i am able to take bold risks when the time presents itself is the Holy Ghost, He is my helper.

Without Him, i am all of those things that the world system is prey to: weak, sick, beggarly. But with Him, He shows me another way time and again. He shows me who i am, not religion but relationship. He shows me a strong in the Lord Tessa, a healed and whole Tessa, complete and lacking nothing, a wealthy Tessa, in a wealthy place Tessa, having all i need provided for by the Lord. He shows me who i can be in Christ, versus who the world says I am.

The world has a way of trying to colonize me, filling me with fear and dread but in Him I have peace. The peace that passes all understanding and knowledge of the world and its troubles and lack and insecurities and whatnots. The world is bad news...

Lately, I have been taught not to allow this jaded world conform me to its image, it cannot be allowed to define me because it is not my creator...


What the heck will i choose? The world's way or God's way?
My actions will tell
Pray i am alert enough to pick out God's way and follow steadfastly
This is my race!
I will run to win, casting away everything that sways me and takes me in another direction, I am going to go His way in Jesus name, amen


Something tells me Campmeeting Audacious 2012 is going to be a whole new ball game



I am ready, Lord, just keep leading the way!