I care more that He walked on water, changed water to wine, wrought mighty miracles than I care if he was white or black if this was really his picture or how some saw Him. I know that He came, He died on the cross for me and He rose again and that is enough for me.
In my eyes, Jesus is beautiful. I hope you see Him as beautiful and a part of your life too.
You know it gets to a point in your Christian life and you know the answer to most things even without seeking out the voice of God.
I feel that crying is weakness. Before I got saved, the only time I cried was when I was so mad I wanted to hit you or when I was extremely hurt I didn't want to be friends anymore.