I wrote this post last week but I was too busy to send it, and I didn't want to send it unedited...

Mine was pretty tough

Not enough time

That is typically the expectation for my age

I will have time enough to rest when I am old and grey.

My first WOW DIVAS. The pretty lady next to me is Ola Awodipe. She is Noir Diva. 

Good news

Versatile Nigerian invited me to share my story here: http://www.malemika.com/?p=1161

It is a humble one but I am certain it will bless someone.

I promise you, I will write from my heart.

Bad News:

They took Linda's blog down

Good News

I just heard that this is what she was earning. Read it yourself.

Linda Ikeji, owner of one of the top ten most visited websites in Nigeria, is generally quiet about her income, but it is estimated at about $900,000 (N140m), revenue generated from ads and sponsored content. 

Eventually found out the following week that her site was brought down and everyone got talking on how important it is to build your house. Later found out that it was a ruse. They needed traffic for their blogs, they needed Nigeria to get talking and I was actually impressed by their publicist skills.

I also built my house at http://www.imagineitincorporatedng.com

Bad News

I can't remember any. Okay let me say I was really sad to hear that they were robbing at Ijora yesterday. I was safe on Orile road when I heard the gist. But then my safety doesn't depend on the road I am on, the One who looks after me doesn't slumber or sleep, He is too alert to sleep on the job. He has promised to take care of me and mine and I am holding Him to His word.

Good news

There is a lot of work to do this week. This was last week. This week is awesome. I have a lot of social media strategies to put to work, analyze and rework. I am expecting amazing strategies to spring out of my grey matter and much profit and I know that it is coming.

Looking dazzling!

Last weekend I was at the wow divas meet at the Oriental Hotel.

WOW DIVAS means 'Women of Worth Divinely Inspired Victorious Anointed Sisters

Random day at work

By the grace of God I qualify to be a wow diva. I had a great time listening to other divinely inspired and anointed sisters. It is awesome to know that you have worth. Those who do not know are a problem to themselves and their world because they don't know their purpose. Just look at the pics.

For enquiries about wow diva: visit http://www.i-wow.org

I remember having a vision of working with women, something I wrote down about the areas I would like to impact the world, something I have a heart for and a passion to drive me. I sense God is leading me somewhere, Holy Spirit help me learn what I need to know o. I know how much I sometime like to drive myself instead of letting the Spirit of God lead me. Don't let me go the wrong way. I prefer it when you are the one deciding the coordinates of my life, I am not very good with a map.

I don fine sha, even though I no dey smile at least my heart dey smile.

Here are some of the pictures taken:

Fabulous wow divas

Their twitter account is @iWomanofWorth or email inspiredwomenorth@gmail.com to learn about the Women of Worth.

P.S. I manage this site http://www.udookonjo.com

The pretty lady in black and blue is the owner of the site written above. The wow divas thingy is her vision. It is absolutely amazing. Women are doing things o. God knows He can trust us with money and other things. She is at @udookonjo on twitter.

The other two ladies are Christians too.

The first one got to know intimacy with God when she was in a car accident and was paralysed for 2 years. She used to be on her face before God worshipping Him. We need God o. It would be great to learn to be intimate with Him without adversity. She is at @yodifiji on twitter

The lady in the middle is the phenomenal Dr. Ada Igonor who survived Ebola. She is at @DrAdaora on twitter.

One of the things you can learn is how to be an entrepreneur, learn what rich people know instead of trying to beg them for money. How long are you going to beg? That is not sustainable. Personally I have suffered rather than begged because i know what my destination looks like. I would work/serve till I get there because "Kings don't beg, they make decrees".

Another thing is to not spend all that you have, don't consume it all. Live life investing the resources in your dreams. If you don't have dreams, you should have some, even bigger ones everyday. If you live life without investing the resources you get in your dream, you would start living an empty life.

I remember being afraid of suffering my final year in college. I had just N15,000 on me (it had been delivered to me via my s) and I knew that it wouldn't carry me through the session. I was squatting with someone who didn't care deeply about me so I was suffering financially and emotionally. My elder sister was working in Yaba at the time. I agonized all day about giving the money or holding on to it and seeing how long it would last. I had been living on the hats I was making in school and my family was going through a rough time so they couldn't help. 

I was externally calm because my flesh didn't want to give the money, it wanted to eat the 'little cake and die' like the widow at Zarephat. My spirit knew what I ought to do. I was going through a storm along with my family and I didn't know the way out but God knew.

 I took my sister out to Mr. Biggs and I had lunch. I needed to quench the hunger so that I could think straight. Somewhere in between eating lunch, I was thinking about the N15,000 with anger. I was mad at the devil. I had been baptized with the Holy Ghost and I knew because I felt His tangible presence everyday but in the physical everything was going wrong and I didn't knwo what to do. I hugged my sister and continued on my way to unilag.

That evening, I went for fellowship, I never mentioned anything to anyone except my sister (she is also a dangerous giver) because some people who move by sight would have talked me out of it. I barely heard what the preacher was saying: there were no words that could calm the turmoil going on inside me. I just knew that I was going to abandon myself to God. In the year 2003, something about a quarter of the year, I went to the altar at my college (I had since dropped out of the workforce: the words weren't touching my heart because I was cold inside, where it mattered and I don't act or pretend) I knew that David and other people danced to the altar, I couldn't dance, I had in my bag N15, 000, I paid a tithe (at the time I used to double tithe) of N3000 and gave a seed of N10,000 and I had just N2,000 in my bag (less because I took my sister out to Mr. Biggs; I was determined that poverty would not kill me because God has delivered me from poverty and I must see the manifestation). When I dropped it, I imagined people saying, why doesn't she hold on to that? Why? She looks so bad already. How will she eat? I shut down my imagination because sometimes it can be my enemy.

After I had given the money, I just slept because I was like, if the devil wants to kill me in my sleep let Him try. Whatever, I am in God's plan for my life. I have done what He has said. I slept off. I forgot about the money and put my hope and faith in what God will do. I had decided not to trust in money that could not take care of me for 3 months when I had so long to go before my graduation from college. It was a battle I couldn't believe I was having. I felt like I was watching someone else in a movie because life is supposed to go smoothly for me. I am the poster child, the special ones.

I walked back to my hostel, glad that I had given a sacrificial seed (I don't think anyone ask for it specially) but I know that I believed in God and my faith in God was being challenged and I was determined not to disappoint God. I wasn't going to trust in money. Well days later I met a dear friend who asked me to come and stay with her. I wanted to hop out of where I was staying but God loves Christians and the girl who allowed me move in with her might have been offended so I stayed so that she would know I was not ungrateful but after exams when school resumed I moved in with this friend to a much peaceful room for me. I met 7 very lovely ladies who sheltered me (there is a difference between having a roof over your head and being sheltered, they fed me, clothed me, laughed with me, gisted with me; it was as if God prepared them for me).

I had people divinely positioned all through graduating, NYSC, etc, I didn't pay for many things, I was getting free things from all over without asking so that my pride and dignity would be protected even though I was receiving help. 

There were times I cried and I wailed and I learned what Romans 8:36 not sure (nothing can separate me from the love of God) the hard way. I say the hard way because even as I screamed those prayers I doubted them because I was just so hungry, I had never been hungry like that in my life apart from Tuesday fasts which I had just learned in 2001 and 2002. What kind of fearsome trial is this that I am forced to be hungry in college and I will not beg because "Kings don't beg". I would cry and rage and in the midst of the raging and near despair I would be screaming the prayers out loud and be in tongues because I know the God who touched me on the 4th of September 2001 after I had been born again for 6 months.

The things that He did and showed me challenged my intelligence. I had learned early to trust in my intelligence and all that I trusted in was falling apart so that all that I could hold on to was God and when I thought that I had had enough, something bigger came again. It was in those times I learned to chase God's word. I would read it over and over and underline it. 

So I know what it is like to be helped by God

I call Him faithful

My el-shaddai who feeds every area of my life, me and my fam. 

I didn't come from humble beginnings, my parents have had terrific opportunities but I have been humbled not by poverty but by God who is the author of divine orchestrations, amidst circumstances that would cause others to cower God has shown Himself to be my strength, my provider, my direction, the lover of my soul, my healer, my sanctifier. I am ready for whatever He is ready for. He is my el-shaddai

The faithfulness of God from 2001-2004 April. There's so much more!

Lessons: God is not a coincidence. Neither are the things that He does a coincidence. He always has a plan. Trust in Him. Take your eyes off people and circumstances and put it on Him. 

Why won't I love my sister? Linda Ikeji will make you think twice about the way you blog.

The Sisterhood of the World Blogger Award

I would nominate LindaIkeji but I don't know her personally. I admire her entrepreneurial traits though. She is a phenomenon. When I left my stable job last year, some people laughed and said, how do I expect to make money from blogging. I think they expected me to come begging after three months of starving. I might not be earning as Linda does currently but I am certainly on my way there.

Doubtless I would not have starved thanks to my Mom and Dad. I listened to all the advice I was given but I didn't take the advice seriously because I desperately needed a change. I was dying of boredom. I needed a challenge. 

One lovely blogger who has got a beautiful mind tagged me yesterday. I can be very selective, I hate flattery and false word so I am delighted that I do not lie when I say she has a beautiful mind. She is Fredilia Momodu and I would love to say a huge thanks to her. She is too kind. I met her via my other blog here. My blog is where I express myself as best as I can from time to time.

the rules of the Sisterhood of the World Blogger award are simple, you can only pass it unto a woman is pretty obvious. I accepted yesterday on twitter. My twitter handle is @tessbabee

What is the ten questions?

RULES

1.Thank the blogger who nominated you, linking back to their site

2.Put the awards logo on your blog

3.Answer their ten questions

4.Make up 10 new questions for your nominees

5.Nominate 10 bloggers

Her question:

Borrowing from Aby who stole, sorry borrowed from Ugo "Tell us about a part of you that you struggled with (e.g. a habit, nose, shape, leg) and how you overcame the fear."

MY STRUGGLES

I struggled with being pretty from the time I was 7 years old. I have 5 sisters so you can see how that would be a problem. I grew up with the 5 sisters and I was the tomboy. I excelled at everything guys excelled at and even outdid a lot of them. I could beat them physically at sports, academics, debates, whatnots. I topped that by going to high school 2 years ahead of all my mates.

MY MINDSET

I was perfect at everything except being a woman. I turned 13 and became narcissistic. Ask my sister, I have the capacity to spend about 2 hours in front of the mirror studying my face, my legs, my arms, my hair. You need to ask my high school mates what my hair looked like, I succeeded in convincing them that my hair was just great for me. Why wouldn't it? I gave it 100% care. It may have been scanty but no other hair of head could boast of the kind of care mine underwent. Everywhere I went I was told I was beautiful. I was cute, I looked fulani, I had inner beauty, you just couldn't stop gazing at me. With all this compliments, I would say 'thanks' externally but inside I was not perfect enough for me. I wanted to be perfect. I wanted the perfect A.

BREAKING THE MINDSET

I turned 19 and surrendered my life to Christ, I was getting the compliments still but the picture of who I wanted to be in my head hadn't translated to the physical. I began searching scripture: 'before you were born, I knew you'. I would be like, 'Great, God I think so too BUT...'.

'You are fearfully and wonderfully made by God'.

'You are a royal diadem'. I would look and say, 'that could never be, I just feel so ordinary, in fact I feel like nothing'

AGREEING TO CHANGE MY MIND

One day, I decided to agree with God because, really how smart can you get that you would become smarter than God. As I began to say these words from scripture I began to change externally, I don't think my face changed but I began to glow so much so that it wasn't just about my features, I began to exude a confidence that was beyond my physical features which are great but wasn't enough to give me confidence. I began to value who I was on the inside so that I wasn't just a merchandise on the shelf. I began to value me so that when the crazy folks in the world came with their criticisms, I would laugh like they were crazy. 

BELIEVING WHAT GOD SAID

When I came to know the beauty of God inside me, it helped me appreciate the beauty of God in others and to speak a word of encouragement, life, if you believe, into another person without thinking of what I was going to benefit (there was never a selfish reason). I got to know the beauty of the Holy Ghost and how that He cared about me for no personal reason that would benefit Him but for the sake of me. It was so unselfish I couldn't believe it. Knowing the Holy Ghost helped me start considering others. I am still a work in progress and I am glad at the way the Holy Spirit still keeps growing me and increasing me.

MY OWN QUESTION

My own question is simple. It is this.

What would you do with your life (It can't be something that is selfish, it has got to be selfless) if you knew that you couldn't fail at it? If you knew that God would back you and send you the resources that you need all the time, what would you do?

WHO AM I NOMINATING?

My nomination is a mixture of female bloggers whose work I admire and bloggers turned friends who have been very supportive.

Ohlumayowa

Eloho

ToyinFab

Favouredwoman

Jennifer

Atilola

Maggielola

Motunolami

Carolyn

Blessing

EXTRAS

Alicia

Ms Tizzle

Currently I manage a blog (http://www.udookonjo.com). It is an entrepreneurial blog targeted at building the African woman into a phenomenal entrepreneur. You can visit the blog and subscribe so you can avail yourself of information that will build you into the entrepreneur of your dreams.

Dream big and then write down the goals that will deliver the dream into your hands and start accomplishing them one after the other.

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Until next time, 

Be the authentic you, the one who dreams of changing her world for the better.

Is this a rant? No It is a mix of so and so.

I am tired of the arguments of ignorants who don't know better. I am tired of the fetishes of people who want to be something they don't yet understand. I am tired of being misunderstood.

To explain walking and living in the Spirit, read this.

Faith is a journey but some things are basics.

To hear from Smith Wigglesworth about faith, read here, here and here.

Holy Spirit. The Spirit of God who causes arguments from all and sundry because truth be told, the unbelieving would rather the church be powerless or at least explainable. Everything that isn't explainable is heresy. Ask anyone to describe heresy and the greatest definition I have for heresy is blind hatred. Joan of Arc, the disciples and other notable Christians who aren't in world would best explain this.

I thought I would keep quiet but I won't. Show me your faith by your actions, not just your words and not words and actions contradicting each other. 

You can hear the word for 30 years even 40 and the action you take subconsciously will point to you what you believe if you are conscious of them.

I am not perfect, I have never claimed to be but I have come to the gathering of just men made perfect and I don't have to prove it to anyone. 

The fact that I am a woman does not make me inferior and will never make me inferior or silent either. No one has the right to tell me how to worship my God, or pray or a rote to follow. The bible says we are to worship in Spirit and in truth and I am not living in the north that I should be afraid of worshipping the Lord neither am I living under the law that I should be living to please any human being above God.

Is it still a rant?

Nah, it is a mix of so and so. I used to be fetish but I stopped being fetish with a bang when I surrendered to Jesus. I didn't do it to join a social club either. I came into the gathering of those who are sanctified. I have an inheritance with them who are sanctified; the saints. When I say saints, I am not refering to a church denomination, I am not limited by that. I am refering to the people, them who know the Lord.

I lost my voice for so long that I don't intend losing it to anyone for any reason.

"Milk and honey are in my lips"

"Out of my belly shall flow rivers of living water"

If I am silent, how do I get anything done on earth? How do I exercise dominion? God has made it clear that nothing should stop me from the destination that He has planned for me and that He is not standing in my way. In fact, He is my prompter, He is the One leading the way. How is it possible for me to know the coordinates to get to the place of  destiny without the Holy Ghost leading me?

I laugh. 

This is why I laugh. I wonder how others find their way without God. The intellect of man, our intelligence is a terrible master when we have an enemy who is not subject to the wisdom of this world. How do you best satan with your intelligence. The wisdom of God can and does best satan all the time. 

The point of this rant/post is that I will not lose my voice and I have a scripture that is backing. If any be strong enough. I don't ask you to come against me, No I am not strong on my own. I ask you to come against the word of God that is backing me and see if you can prevail. Many pharaohs have come and gone. There is no pharaoh that can prevail over me because I am not fulfilling my own vision. Thank God I could not conjure a vision on my own. All the years of waiting culminated in a great trust for God. He is the giver of the vision and the fulfiller of the vision. 

"The Lord is my light and my salvation, WHOM shall I fear?"

Here is the word that backs me. If you can strike it out of the bible, then you can come against me. But if you can't. If you have submitted to live under the word of God, then you can't come against me and if you do, good luck besting God.

GALATIANS

Will you accept Verse 29 without accepting Verse 27 & 28?

Remember you can't pick some parts of the bible to obey and leave some other parts out.

The Holy Ghost has said that the devil and his minions are not a factor so I must manage the other covenant relationship He has put me in. As long as it is the right place.

I need to stop somewhere...

Other resources from Smith Wigglesworth except you believe that Wigglesworth is not a Christian too?

Faith being an action here

The main thing is not healing but preach the kingdom of God and His righteousness here

I don't why healing causes so much controversy and encounters so much opposition from many who claim to believe. It beats me.

I am intoxicated by the Holy Ghost, I will never deny Him here

My inheritance: The Holy Spirit is the One who helps you claim your inheritance here

I used to hear the heritage of the sons in my spirit but it appeared to be audible, I heard it countless times until it drove me to read and to search until I found what the Holy Ghost wanted to show me. 

I heard Jehovah Mekoddishkem about a 1000 times or more over three weeks, it was frustrating. At the time I worked in a church, I asked everyone and no one could tell me what it meant. That was when I was lazy. Now I just get out a concordance and a bible and I start studying. Not every time they must feed you cerelac. Sometimes you need to cook the food. I eventually discovered that it means: "I am the One who sanctifies you" so don't be surprised that I don't lose my confidence or get scared. Imagine hearing one word almost a thousand times over three weeks.

Read full of faith here.

So I have been troubled in my spirit for 3 days. I couldn't rest until I wrote out this word. Now I can have peace again.

I am not a pastor and I don't want to be. I honor pastors but the position holds too many controversies for me to ever covet the position of a pastor.

I have been called selfish but I don't believe that I am. If you have received the Holy Ghost and been taught of Him and pursued a relationship with Him you will know that having the ear of God and having God's attention is more important than having a position.

Having a relationship with the Holy Ghost makes that position effective though. 

I will continue after or might not but I know that enough is out.

Anchor Scripture for September: My season of restoration. #Thankful #Blessed #DaughterofGod

29 And if you are Christ’s, then you are Abraham’s seed, and heirs according to the promise.

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28 There is neither Jew nor Greek, there is neither slave nor free, there is neither MALE NOR FEMALE; for you are all one in Christ Jesus.

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Galatians 3:27 For as many of you as were baptized into Christ have put on Christ.

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There is neither slave, nor free, Jew nor Greek, male nor female.....

Ciao!

I love His audacity: He made me like Him.'The Last Supper' from the Epic Motion Picture 'Son of God'

I am going to buy this movie.

He is so amazing

He still does what he did then now.



He is love.

Even if no one else loves you, God loves you.

I read this post and this is my comment. 

http://ohluwamayowa.wordpress.com/2014/09/11/what-makes-suicide-an-option/

This was my response. There are some things that I don't joke about. When I hear 'Heaven rejoices when one sinner is saved' it lights up something inside me. When I hear that once a person dies, they cannot make a decision for Christ again. It touches me. Everything else loses its value when I consider eternity. I don't use words lightly when I speak of eternity. 

If you are an enemy of God, you are my enemy. If you are a friend of God you are my enemy. If you save souls, I can start liking you immediately. If you send souls to hell, I start praying immediately against your enterprise. I don't have any doubts about whose army I belong to and I don't take it lightly when I face the army soldiers of the enemy.

Christ was made manifest to destroy the works of the devil. If I recognize the devil's devices or works anywhere. I start praying not out of fear but because I recognize that the power to change anything beyond the physical is in prayer. That is why I pray. I pray because I know the King of kings.

Suicide is from the devil.

I do a lot of fact checking as a hobby and have read books such as 'Piercing the Darkness' and 'This Present Darkness' and I know that suicide is of the devil.

A lot of people who believe in the 'New Age' thingy believe that some people's life are not worth living and so they may as well kill themselves.

I personally believe that no matter who you are or what your circumstances are, you are living a life worth living. All you need to do is discover the purpose that God  has for you.

The world is a tough place and finding real Christians who are willing to invest in you without thinking of what they stand to gain is difficult but I would love to be one of those Christians that God can depend on to be His representatives who can inspire hope outside of what I can gain in the life of an individual and that is who I am.

I don't know about other Christians and I am not saying that I am better than other Christians but I love to do what matters to God. I have thought about suicide and I have people close to me who have considered it. I always try though to show anyone I meet who my anchor is and what keeps me moving and fulfilling my purpose to God. Maybe in hearing this, they may be pushed to also find their purpose in God.

Sincerity is a big deal to God, that is something I have noticed and a lot of Christians are terrible actors. There is no authentic Christianity without the Holy Ghost and I believe that if people can find out that Jesus loves them, he would be enough reason to live a life that is worth it. 

Email me at tessadoghor@gmail.com at any time of the day if you want to talk. If there is nothing else I can do for you, I can introduce you to the man who can and also direct you to men who care and who are living for the kingdom of God.

I am an equipped soldier in God's army. I know that I am covered and protected as long as I am on God's assignment and committed to the furtherance of the kingdom of God on earth. I am a soldier who takes her assignment seriously. 

I pray for you if you have ever considered suicide that the power to walk free will come on you in Jesus name, amen.

I pray that you will encounter the Holy Ghost, the Spirit of God, that He would be your constant companion day or night in Jesus name, amen.

I pray that you will find comfort in the presence of the Holy Spirit and wisdom and understanding as you read God's word in Jesus name, amen.

I pray that you will come to see yourself as God sees you not as a victim but as a victor, not as a foolish person but as the wise, not as the weak but as the strong in the Lord, not as defeated but as more than a conqueror in Christ Jesus in Jesus name, amen.

I pray that you would receive enthusiasm and that God will restore your soul and that you would find your purpose in pleasing God and encounter that life that is in God in Jesus name, amen.

God has been good to me so I can only speak of His goodness to you and pray that the Spirit of God would cause the truth of His word to come alive in your heart in Jesus name, amen.

Your life has a purpose, preserve it and defend it. Read the word everyday and find your strength and power and fulfilment in God and in the Holy Ghost who is the helper of the believer in Christ Jesus.

Be blessed.