Knowing the Love of the Father

 God's love is different!

Yeah, that fits for a beginning statement. When i got saved, i compared everyone's love to try to understand what He meant when He said He loved.

Some ignorant folks secretly think its pathetic to know the love of God (Yep I have met some of them) but i dare put it to them that it is because they do not know the love of the Father that they don't understand that even all the people who think they love you can't love you until they have known Christ.

They either love you for how you look, who you are or what you do for them. They like you because you fulfill something in them, they love selfishly.

God loves you for no just cause.

You know how we want to be more of something because someone admired that in us. God loves you irrespective of your performance. He loves you when you please Him and when you don't.

You know how some people love us because of what we would add to them.

He loves you when you are good and when you are bad. When i got saved, i used to think what can i do to repay God? I laugh at my naivety then, I've been serving Him for over a decade now and I know it doesn't fit even a drop in the ocean of all that He has done.

So what do we do?
Be humbled by the way that He loves you. Receive His love. And if you don't know how, learn. Because you are wasting time trying to win His approval by the works that you do.
Work for Him because you love Him and not because you want to repay Him.

He's a lover
That used to sound somehow in my ears. Now i call Him the lover of lovers, there's no one like Him, yeah, that's the lover of my soul!

Receive His love
You can't pay for it!

NB: You have been forgiven
He is not holding anything against you
Yes, even if it is really bad, what you did
Do you doubt that He knows every lil' bit of it?

Getting the inheritance!

To get the inheritance, you must have a different spirit. God's spirit is alive in me, it is not a cliche either or something to be studied like a course you have to pass. The Holy Spirit is someone you have to get to know, He is not someone to be used either, He is someone to obey, the third person of the God head.

I am going to be analyzing Psalm 2 and what it means to me.

Why do the nations assemble with commotion

Psalm 2 

¹ Why do the nations assemble with commotion [uproar and confusion of voices], and why do the people imagine (meditate upon and devise) an empty scheme?

 This is God's response when his creation gather together and plan schemes and crafty things similar to what is going on in the north, Boko Haram (BH: secret sect my foot) they are definitely in the leadership or in the top echelons of business in Nigeria, they are definitely not so secret, at least, the funding is not from ghosts and the like. they surprise and amaze God when they do those kind of funny futile things or make decrees that God does not agree with, such decrees can't stand.

² The kings of the earth take their places; the rulers take counsel together against the Lord and His Anointed One (the Messiah, the Christ). They say,

³ Let us break Their bands [of restraint] asunder and cast Their cords [of control] from us.

 God goes so far as to say that the kings and rulers gather and take counsel against God and His anointed. 

Pause: (When a person comes against the Lord's anointed, they are coming against God, Hmmm, i forgot). 

⁴ He Who sits in the heavens laughs; the Lord has them in derision [and in supreme contempt He mocks them].

⁵ He speaks to them in His deep anger and troubles (terrifies and confounds) them in His displeasure and fury, saying,

God laughs. He laughs because He isn't worried. He laughs because He has everything under control. He then speaks.

⁶ Yet have I anointed (installed and placed) My King [firmly] on My holy hill of Zion.

⁷ I will declare the decree of the Lord: He said to Me, You are My Son; this day [I declare] I have begotten You. 

He then speaks of His anointed that they are rooted in Zion by Him. That He is our birth Father, the Father of our second birth.

⁸ Ask of Me, and I will give You the nations as Your inheritance, and the uttermost parts of the earth as Your possession.

⁹ You shall break them with a rod of iron; You shall dash them in pieces like potters’ ware.

¹⁰ Now therefore, O you kings, act wisely; be instructed and warned, O you rulers of the earth.

He then speaks to the anointed and asks us to ask for the nations and the uttermost part of the earth. Lord, i thank you for your word says that all things are mine, that i am going to have dominion over this world. I thank you for i have dominion in my house and in my estate. Righteousness has reign over my household and over my estate in Jesus name, amen.

¹¹ Serve the Lord with reverent awe and worshipful fear; rejoice and be in high spirits with trembling [lest you displease Him].

¹² Kiss the Son [pay homage to Him in purity], lest He be angry and you perish in the way, for soon shall His wrath be kindled. O blessed (happy, fortunate, and to be envied) are all those who seek refuge and put their trust in Him!

God then asks us to serve Him reverently  and that we should rejoice. The psalmist closes with the fact that the ones who seek refuge and put their trust in God are happy fortunate and to be envied. 

I am just glad that i am among the number that put their trust in God.

 

Totally Random!

How's it going? i ask myself.

Its okay if 'okay' is what i want or if 'okay' is good enough for me

Once you start capacity building though, i mean increasing your capacity

It creates what i prefer to call a 'holy discontent' and i do need it

I have been thinking about some parts of scripture (giving your life away)

It has got to be worth it, right?

If in your heart, its not worth it

It is going to affect the quality of life you live and the amount of contentment you have

And it is not about how hard, tasking or challenging the work you do is

It is about the meaning behind what you do.

I need to deal with it, create a solution, i mean

If you don't have a solution, its like hitting a roadblock

I'm putting out feelers

Spiritual wise, i'm practicing walking and reducing the working so i can refocus

If i can get the walking, i bet the working will work itself out

It might even produce something beautiful!

The word of God sets the course...watch what you say!

She's special, her name is Trish and she's a missionary

"It would be crazy to choose this world over eternity!!"

"Crazy"- Mercy Me

Why I would I spend my life longing for the day that it would end..
Why would I spend my time pointing to another man..
Isn't that crazy

How can I find hope in dying, with promises unseen..
How can I learn your way is better
In everything I'm taught to be..
Isn't that crazy

I have not been called to the wisdom of this world...
But to a God who's calling out to me..
And even though the world may think
I'm losing touch with reality
It would be crazy
To choose this world over eternity

And if I boast let me boast
Of filthy rags made clean
And if I glory let me glory
In my Savior's suffering
Isn't that crazy

And as I live this daily life
I trust You for everything
And I will only take a step
When I feel You leading me
Isn't that crazy

I have not been called to the wisdom of this world..
But to a God who is calling out to me..
And even though the world my think
I'm losing touch with reality
It would be crazy
To choose this world over eternity

I can see progress
Albeit a lil'
I'm glad i see progress

Gonna withdraw a whole
lot more
till all i hear is Him

They talk from now till tomorrow
Few of what they say translates
to actions

Pointing is a whole lot easier
than taking care of your house...

Imma do me!

PURPLE CAMPAIGN

I believe in charity, I believe in helping other people, as young as age 9, I knew I would be involved in charities, this is one step in that direction, I pray God would bring more opportunity my way to help other through charities.

Ever come across someone who has been raped, beaten black and blue or bruised emotionally? It is the same story whether it be a boy, a girl, a woman or a wife; abuse in any form is about power and control; It is inhumane, brutal and destructive to the abused. 

Many times we are at a loss of what to do and in trying to help; we usually compound the problem for the abused. This is because many of us are ignorant of what to do. We do what we think would make things better instead of what is right

You can choose though, to become a part of the solution instead of being a part of the problem. You can help drum up help for the hurting by joining “the purple campaign walk” and giving towards it.

If you know anyone who has been abused who is seeking shelter, a safe house, you can call:

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This is my latest article, it is a feature go check it out.
http://connectnigeria.com/articles/2012/03/21/okay-what-is-kony-2012/

Thinking! Thinking! Thinking in pictures
I am not sure what to write but i want to write another feature, it is a challenge a good one. I need the discipline; i am on a target of one article a week.

So still thinking, if you get any ideas for a topic, drop a line but meanwhile, you can read my article above and comment on it, what do you think?

Chasing my dreams is not easy but i'd rather chase them than live a dull and listless life. So God helping me, i am going to give it my best shot!

You will read of me and hear of me and hate me or celebrate me, your choice!

Affirmation Time...

It is all in me

I am created to win
To rule and to conquer
I am who God says I am
I am created to beat the odds
and fulfill my dreams in spite of my obstacles

I am created to break my expectations
and have my imaginations exceeded
I am not for the mediocre or the mundane
I am created for greatness

Everyday i seek to be more
of who He has called
Everyday i seek excellence
I seek to be better in all i do
I seek that day when who i am
will be proud of who i am becoming daily

This i pray
That i can shut out the naysayers
and hear only the midwives
that i can shut out the negatives
and hear the Holy Ghost
that i can shut out the folks with dead dreams
and soar
and soar until all my dreams are accomplished

Beautiful is what i am
Yet BEAUTIFUL
is what i am becoming everyday
because I am His workmanship

Okay, I am running, still running
I am not going to look back from this heavenly race

Grace is my wildcard!

To be audacious is...

It's 2012...
Our christian camp is around the corner and i want it to be special, not fun special but God special, i don't want to just do the t-shirt thingy (i could be wearing any of the fascinating t-shirts around, its not a big deal), i don't want to do the campaign thingy (i can safely make the campaign team of a dynamic president, an excellent nigerian one or anywhere in the world for that matter), i don't want to do the holiday thingy, i'm done with playing church, doing politics and responding to anyone's less than christian behaviour, they are not the most important thing. God is!

Behind of all the games we play, there is a God and that is who i'm gonna be going to camp to meet, i trusted Him with my life, i still trust Him today so i choose to prepare for that TIME.

I tried to do it the short way, i was sadly lacking and ignorant so i want to find out what audacious means so i can do the word and maybe change the world along the way, MAYBE! I'll be using several dictionaries.

Here goes:
au·da·cious
[aw-dey-shuhs]
adjective

extremely bold or daring; recklessly brave; fearless: anaudacious explorer.
extremely original; without restriction to prior ideas; highly inventive: an audacious vision of the city's bright future.
recklessly bold in defiance of convention, propriety, law, orthe like; insolent; brazen.
lively; unrestrained; uninhibited: an audacious interpretationof her role.



So i've been thinking, does the above describe me? I could do the churchy thing and say yes. But i'll say no, it doesn't describe me yet. I intend to get there. I used to be uninhibited, i need to get back there; i'm unpredictable even though i don't look it. I'm original, even though i seemed to be losing my touch or rather His touch. I can get back there. I can break protocol when its least expected, i'm not afraid of anyone or anything.

Here's another:
intrepidly daring : adventurous <an audacious mountain climber>b : recklessly bold : rash <an audacious maneuver
: contemptuous of law, religion, or decorum : insolent
: marked by originality and verve audacious experiments



Let me just say that i noticed that they all indicated that audacious is an adjective so it has got to be an action word and not just speaking words, i intend to throw away religion, it will not be the death of me.
Am i daring? I don't know, have i got verve? Yes. Am i contemptuous of religion? I had better be if i intend to fulfill all that God has called me to do. I am done with people-pleasing. Audacious experiments: Lord, you know, i leave that with you and pray for courage to obey when i need to.

And another:

1. Fearlessly, often recklessly daring; bold. See Synonyms at adventurous, brave.
2. Unrestrained by convention or propriety; insolent
3. Spirited and original: an audacious interpretation of two Jacobean dramas.



Fearless, i conquered fear years ago, yet it is an enemy i still need to conquer from time to time, what is my choice of weapon, it hasn't changed 2 Tim 1:7, He has not given me a spirit of fear, i should never find myself playing with fear because it is not a gift from God, God's gifts to me are the spirit of love, power and a sound mind, this should be my focus every time it seems like i am afraid.

The final definition that i have:
audacious (comparative more audacious, superlative most audacious)
Showing willingness to take bold risks; recklessly daring.
Impudent.
[edit]

Synonyms
(willing to take bold risks): bold, daring, temeritous, temerarious
[edit]

Antonyms
(willing to take bold risks): shy, cautious, prudent



So that is it...
I got more analysis
Am i willing to take bold risks? No. I usually shy away from risks but the only reason i am able to take bold risks when the time presents itself is the Holy Ghost, He is my helper.

Without Him, i am all of those things that the world system is prey to: weak, sick, beggarly. But with Him, He shows me another way time and again. He shows me who i am, not religion but relationship. He shows me a strong in the Lord Tessa, a healed and whole Tessa, complete and lacking nothing, a wealthy Tessa, in a wealthy place Tessa, having all i need provided for by the Lord. He shows me who i can be in Christ, versus who the world says I am.

The world has a way of trying to colonize me, filling me with fear and dread but in Him I have peace. The peace that passes all understanding and knowledge of the world and its troubles and lack and insecurities and whatnots. The world is bad news...

Lately, I have been taught not to allow this jaded world conform me to its image, it cannot be allowed to define me because it is not my creator...


What the heck will i choose? The world's way or God's way?
My actions will tell
Pray i am alert enough to pick out God's way and follow steadfastly
This is my race!
I will run to win, casting away everything that sways me and takes me in another direction, I am going to go His way in Jesus name, amen


Something tells me Campmeeting Audacious 2012 is going to be a whole new ball game



I am ready, Lord, just keep leading the way!

Just wanted to say

'Not operating in the natural'

I expect the unexpected
because it is all grace...

I expect the best of God
I expect the supernatural

Have a wonderful Christmas

Better!
Sigh of relief
I am good with God again as in fellowship

Trying to make sure it's something
i cultivate and not just something
i'll do and forget about it

I have a prayer partner now
so even when i don't feel like
i get pushed

So i am stirring myself up more
I intend to take it up a hundred
i need to do the stretch worship

and fellwoship
it wakes up my spirit
and i know i am not like the ordinary man
who doesn't know Jesus

No discrimination
But if you try Jesus
You'll know what the hype is all about

When i got the high
I knew nothing else would ever beat that

The presence of God

I value the Holy Ghost inside me
I am so thankful
I just don't say thank you enough

Here goes:

Thank you Jesus for coming to live inside me
You are the best thing that ever happened to me

The day i got saved and...
...the day i got baptized with the Holy Ghost
is still like a dream

J.U.S.T got to grow!

I have seen every reason not to believe
read many things
I know the pros and the cons
I make my choices fully knowledgeable
of the excesses and the benefits

I still choose God...
He must have believed in me
So i believe in me too

I also believe in His plan
and it is good!

Even if i stand alone
I'll still believe.

A new me!

I didn't think i was strong enough
I tried to hear Him
but i knew something was wrong because
i was trying

I doubt Adam or Enoch, Noah or Abraham
found it difficult to hear Him
They just heard
because they knew He spoke with them regularly

I have the women i confide in and trust
I asked them what to do
I was instructed
My 'p' said i needed mid wives
so instead of praying to hear
I began asking for mid wives

and He is sending them...

Thank you Jesus
I can overcome anything
Because I am born of God
unstoppable and indestructible

You can't stop me
because He has given me the speed of Elijah
divine speed
and the favour of Esther.

This is me...

Today is my friend and colleague Monica's husband's birthday...
So the office is 'abuzz'
Our office administrator said something really funny
He said, "God will help us in this office" in this really funny accent
It was something his son said (He cooked a meal where there was no meat so the young man, he was about three or four at the time. He kept repeating these words every three minutes).

There is something about the help of God
It is different from the help of man
Psalm 46 says "God is our refuge and strength
a very present help in trouble"
The New Testament says that the Holy Ghost is our helper and standby

Recognizing the help of God is a different matter from taking advantage of God's help
This lady on Facebook yesterday said something profound, she said "When you get into a
relationship with the Lord Jesus Christ, you withdraw from self-help and depend on the
help of God, God wants to take care of you".

There is this song we used to sing in college a lot, it went like this:
"God will take good care of you, God will take good care of you,
God will take good care of you, yes He will, yes He will".

Some people sang it at a time when nothing was wrong, others sang it at a time when
they were caught in the storms of life, some in the midst of fire. One thing that remained
even with changing seasons was the unchanging nature of God.

He still takes care of His children

My camp meeting experience!

The feverish praise and worship during the "Arise" it was like the presence of God
moved us to praise Him greatly, it was indeed awesome! Destinies were changed.

Camp meeting was awesome!

There were all sorts of ministrations

of word, music, dance, drama
we were blessed and edified...

Declaring that we are the light of the World

My thots back in the days...

“Integrity is possession of firm principles, completeness and wholeness. There is nothing that is so admired as a man with integrity who would not compromise his principles. O! To be a man of integrity! I would die happy knowing I have lived right walking the footsteps of my predecessors before me”

-          Me

I got this from a blog post I wrote on July 14, 2008 and this picture of me is beautiful, I mean the pictures the words I wrote paint. I don’t know if I have improved so much from then and it worries me. I wanna be better, I want to improve for Christ, I feel like I have been so hung up on other people I have forgotten to ‘become’.

Christ, help me ‘become,’ you say in your word that as many as believe in you, you give the power to become the sons of God. Help me become what you have called me to be Lord.

This one makes me laugh:

“Seek to know why people become heroes whether of faith or of nations, it is usually because they have given or not because of what they have collected with grasping hands”

20 July 2011

I am proud of who I am today

Your daughter!

Your daughter
She's crazy...

Before i yack, yack yack
Lord i will like to say
'Thank you for journey mercies'
I traveled to Benin for a cousin's wedding
1st day: I spent the whole night on the road,
my sis was worried crazy, i wasn't crazy me,
all i kept thinking was that God did not tell me that
i would die on a road trip or be attacked by armed robbers
so that was not my concern

Day 2 & 3:
I had lots of fun.

Day 4:
Pissed i had to go back to the real world!
Travelled back i came with my precious bro
there we were (2 of us only in the bus, was worried about the traffic situation)
and i was wondering when we would leave the park today since the Lagos-Benin rd was bad
out of nowhere comes another bus, and we add up complete the
second bus and off we are to Lagos in just 10 mins (God always has another plan and
can't be limited)

I compare it with arriving ten mins earlier and seeing the bus
we were supposed to enter leaving thinking we would have to wait
another 2 hrs and then stopping my thoughts and giving God room...

All i can say is 'i am glad you got my steps ordered...'

Okay, yarning matters I think i am the only crazy girl on the planet
Everyone believes in que sera, sera. I don't, i believe God is in control of every part of my life
Everyone believes in things just happen I don't, i believe God is in control of everything
and it works for me so far

Don't accept FATE, work on your FAITH

I apologize but i don't apologise, i refuse to think like everyone else I will think like me Everything is possible with God.He's the one i stand with so my life is gonna be full of wonders definitely. I'll just let my self go and keep reprogramming with God's word...

I live the glory-life, it's my destiny
can't be ordinary. tell me i am boasting, i don't care i was birthed by God and he doesn't expect me to be ordinary every part of my life is under his divine influence was created to be different, born (birthed by God) to win always

See what i mean, i am crazy and absolutely cool with that, i believe the invisible (my friends be always complaining) If i didn't change my thinking for them, who would i do it for?

I live for Him first and foremost before you start bring your human reasoning into it
I am not of the world, i am a supernatural being and i take it seriously

Today...

Learnt about the integrity of God's word...
God's word never fails
Why?
Cos it's been tested that's why.

There is a reason why folks say:
Who said it?
When people tell them stuff that is difficult to believe
It's because they want to know how trustworthy
the said person is

God promised Abraham so much
and then He swore by himself because
There was nothing greater
he's a good God and a sovereign one at that

have you ever check the meaning of the word sovereign
I checked 'infallible' today

It means guaranteed to never fail...

Still writing: About absolutes

It is because i learnt about absolutes that i even agreed to give my life to Christ
Who has heard any crazy as trying to make sure God was trustworthy
Well that was what i did.

I held out and heard and heard and heard, till i decided that probably this God was
worth trying out
All the while i was following, i kept thinking, 'I hope He does not turn out to be like
all these human beings who just don't bloody really care'

I got to know God and everyday was a quest and the preacher said, 'If you really
want to know God, you can't get tired of searching His word'.

Immediately i received the Holy Ghost and got over the shock of not being able to
explain everything, i was so big about the Holy Ghost but the preacher was big
about THE WORD.
I was convinced about the Holy Spirit because i experienced Him practically every
meeting, but the word, i was not sure i had come across Him yet, i was not
convinced, neither was i fully persuaded, i need convincing, i really do!

Well, long and short of the story, the very first two absolutes i came across were:

'I love you with an everlasting love'
&
'Draw near unto me and i will draw nigh unto me' 

If it sounded like scripture in the ears of everyone else, for me, it sounded like drums
It sounded like an angel was screaming down my ears these words...

The very next absolute came to me in the early hours of the morning before my
prayer time, i woke up muttering:

"The letter killeth but the spirit gives LIFE (Zoe)"

And so i got addicted to the Holy Ghost, will be back tomorrow to talk about the
Holy Spirit and more on absolutes

Absolutes...

He is the God of absolutes
Before i was born again
I thoughts grey areas and sitting on the fence
was what it was all about

Just keep it on the safe side
walk carefully so you don't fall on any of the sides
I found Jesus
and discovered the importance of absolute

Excited in my bones...

Working on a magazine
with teenagers
I think i am more excited than they are
To see the finished product

People are funny
They never mean what they say
It's funny really
The real world

I am going to stamp my aura on it
I refuse to bow to the system
I'll make a mark, that's my way

Jesus still amazes me, He always astounded His enemies
I can do the same but only by the power of the Holy Ghost
Else i become religious

I won't be having that so
so long...

I think that will be all for today

The first!

Okay, this is my first post.

I am an excellent writer and i am also a very organized person.
I am also a good publicist even though i may come across as
quiet, i can be very driven with the right incentives!

I have many skills i would love to develop and you only develop
your skills by using.

Tess

Here i go