My prayer for you is that your eyes would open to see how much Jesus love, how much Father God loves you and that you would desire the Holy Ghost baptism.
The broken and the hurt places in you can be touched and healed by the Holy Spirit in an instant.
God can do anything. He wants you to be His witnesses.
I pray that you would desire the Holy Ghost and spend time getting to know Him and be safe in Him for the rest of eternity.